“Scarred” by Hannah Bouchard / “Chomps” by Kaitlyn Valenti
“Chomps”
Kaitlyn Valenti
“Scarred”
Hannah Bouchard
Learning to love you
Was like burning a bruised patch
Into my pale skin
Learning to love you
Was like burning a bruised patch
Into my pale skin
I don’t like to blink, if I blink everything goes away.
she said ¨In the blink of an eye it’s gone..̈ What if that’s true,
In one blink
In one second
Everything is gone.
I tried to stop blinking, to keep the moment, to pause time.
I keep my eyes open. Prying them open with two hands, making them burn hot like fire, my tears unwillingly crawl down my face.
It’s not enough.
it’s never enough, I always blink and the moment is gone
her love is gone.
I reach and Claw at my eyes, wanting to grab what I once saw
I need to go back to the feeling, bring me back to the moments.
In one blink of an eye, I now see things differently.
it’s true, she was right it’s all gone in the blink of an eye.
There are some places
that even the sun doesn’t shine.
But there are voices
that can guide you
into the light.
Long walks down the Drum Tower,
Past the iridescent vendors.
It’s another day,
At that familiar place,
On the other side of Earth.
the soft flowy nightgowns
going high on the swings
these are two of my favorite things.
curling up by the fireplace
warm mug in my hand,
watching snowflakes fall from the sky onto the land.
running down hills
watching cars 2 on rewind,
lying down on the couch trying to unwind.
twirling and spinning
always statins on my shirt
hearing birds sing while I play in the dirt.
designer dresses and clothes
wooden toys handmade in germany
counting the stars, never knowing how many.
being chased by the moon
staring up at the sky
sitting at the park watching birds fly by.
baking cookies with grandma
watching curious george
drives with my grandpa, me shotgun in his porsche.
ballet, tap, and jazz
singing some tunes
always awaiting for the month we call june
“guess how much I love you?”
my mother always asked,
“to the moon and back I” say, looking back on the past
now that I think about it,
I remember that song
that song my dad sent me before he passed on,
now I can’t just do I must think and think,
for anything I do might make my heart sink,
not from the movies, books or shows,
but from the name calling of the people below,
sitting high in my tower all on my own,
wondering how I came to be alone.
the window bursts open,
a bright light shines in,
“come on, what are you doing?” she says with a grin.
i sigh, and slouch.
“it’s the end of my childhood, now the fun stops.”
I look back at the set with all the old props.
She smiles at me and says:
“not the end but a beginning, i’ll help you out”
and she did, without a doubt.
she made me smile and laugh,
new times began,
making new memories just like back then.
yes times are fleeting,
I won’t disagree,
but accept some new greetings and you’ll be just like me.
Harry James raised his trumpet above the water’s surface and began to play a tune. Broad sweeps of sound fluttered out of his bell, swinging from high to low as a seagull does across an open ocean. The powerful, yet fragile tone gradually softened as the quiet ripples of the strings crescendoed into waves, and as the waves of brass crescendoed into a tsunami. Again, the trumpet arose, only this time, it was different.
His sound seemed louder, yet softer, in terms of its emotion. The quiet, continuous ripples in the background emitted a spray of salt, while the bright brass conveyed a current of light. He brought the two together to fashion a sea of bittersweetness — no — of reconnection after years of separation. He manifested an emotion.
Music always relates to our feelings. Yet, when Harry James raises his trumpet, the whole world watches as he spins a sea of song, listening for the depth of its soul.
It’s suffocating
being so alone.
Surrounded
but separate.
Within
but without.
An onlooker
who stares instead of sees:
there’s no understanding
in this isolation.
Some cruel captivation
where one is the attraction
but neither is noticed.
Any feeling of belonging evaporated
when I realized it has always been
and will always be
their lives: my intrusion.
Their gaze: my wound.
Their music: my noise.
Their forms and figures never known –
never understood –
let alone picked apart from the crowd.
The inescapable throbbing from sounds
that fly and marr instead of mean.
Too hard. Too fast.
Hitting where it hurts because
these wounds have festered.
This noise pains.
There is a silence to this sound.
Our Hope feeds our Dreams
Like the muse feeds the artist
Like the sky feeds the bird
Like the sun keeps us alive
Hope is a lightness
Centered in your chest
That expands
And contract with every second
We breath it in and out
Our breath has been stifled
Blackened by the same smog blocking our light
Suffocating us
But I still feel Hope
I still feel Hope
I covet it,
Smuggle it
Hide it under my pillow at night
Hold it tight to my chest
The Hope
That one day,
I will see children and not mourn for them
For the life they’ll never have
The life robbed from them before they ever reached the cradle
But Hope
It’s the best type of flowering weed
Growing in the sidewalks
Up concrete walls
Out of the ashes
But Hope
It’s a prayer whispered
When a babe is born
A blessing given
In hard times
A cry in our chest
Carried across the world
And a heart that beats
We will change this
You can never have too much sky.
Buildings stand so high, so proud, defiant. No cracks. No waver. No weakness.
The walls stand so high, nothing gets through them.
They are made to hold against pressure and hold everything inside
Every crack is seen as an error or failure; patched up just like that, but the mark is forever
internalized.
They hold up against it all, or, do they?
They fall so fast, so loud, so messy, so emotional.
All it takes is time and pressure.
One by one,
the cracks form,
and no one can see them
Why do they fall, why do they stand, why do they weather all that pressure?
Because they are forced to
3,..2,..1
They fall, They crumble, They are a mess.
Are they weak?
or Strong,
or Both